In my last post, I admitted I joined Weight Watchers.
I knew the commercials were coming. They alway do every year. And they are so good. They always make we want to join. Their marketing team has skills, to say the least. And I am a sucker for good advertising.
I told myself I was NOT going to do a weight loss program again. I was just going to try to focus on eating healthy and moving my body.
But then I saw Oprah, and she spoke to me. She made my sensitive and fresh postpartum heart cry. She told me, if not now, when?
That line is powerful to me. I have struggled to lose weight since I was 16. I have been on all types of diets and programs. Nothing has worked. So why would this?
But to hear ‘If not now, when?” Spoke to me on a deep level. If I don’t make this work now, when will it?
Having my baby stuck in the NICU because of my what I chose to put in my mouth was hard. It was a huge wake up call.
I have PCOS, it makes weight loss extra difficult. But not impossible.
I have to do it this time. I HAVE to. For my family. For myself.
For the last week I have actually been able to keep tracking points, a miracle in itself. I have worked out every day for a week.
I have decided to set myself mini goals on the road to reaching my goal weight. More on all my goals in a future post!
This weeks goal is to avoid sugary foods until I have drank all my water and tea for the day.
Every morning I fill up this carafe with a pot of tea:
I started doing this because I was finding myself SO hungry all the time, and it was making me overeat on points. The tea is unsweetened, and it stays hot all day.
I also wanted to switch to tea because I was finding myself having coffee 3 times a day, loaded with cream. And everytime I had that coffee, I craved something sweet with it. Which made the points add up quick.
I am finding tea has the same filling warmth of coffee, but without the added points that go with the cream and sweet treat.
So far this week, it was been going well. I had my first NSV (non-scale victory) last night.
I had drank all my water and tea for the day, and I had just enough points for one of these:
Then I realized that I was not even hungry for it. Normally, I would have just eaten it anyways. I had the points, and I had been waiting for it all day. But this time I was able to recognize that was not hungry, and I did not need to eat it.
It may seem dumb, but as someone who struggles with disordered eating, it was very empowering for me. I was able to control food, not let the food control me.
I know I have a very long way to go. It is so discouraging to be at the start, and have such a daunting task ahead of me. I will need to take it one step at a time. One weekly goal at a time. And I will get there.
Because if not now, when? This has become my mantra.